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triedtobelong) wrote2023-10-26 04:52 pm
triedtobelong) wrote2023-10-26 04:52 pm
singillatim application
PLAYER INFO
• Player Name: Balsam
• Player Contact: PM /![[plurk.com profile]](https://plurk.com/favicon.ico)
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• Player Age: 33
• Permissions: Here.
CHARACTER INFO
• Character Name: Jason McConnell
• Character Age: 17
• Character Canon: bare: A Pop Opera
• Canon Point: Mid-act 2, after Cross.
CWs for this entire app: Parental abuse (neglect, emotional); homophobia; religion; suicide; teen pregnancy
• Character History: Jason and his twin sister, Nadia, are the children of rich, neglectful parents. They expected a lot from both of them, with Jason especially pressured by his father to do well in sports and in school, but also barely paid attention to them, down to making a habit of forgetting their birthday. Around twelve years old, the two of them were sent to St. Cecilia's, a Catholic boarding school. They found a circle of friends that would stick with them through the rest of their schooling -- and Jason met his roommate, Peter, who would become one of the most important people in his life.
Jason spent the next few years playing sports, becoming popular, getting top grades, and partying with his friends on weekends. At some point during those years, Jason and Peter discovered they were both gay, and began a relationship they kept secret from everyone else. With Jason desperate to keep pleasing his homophobic, demanding parents -- and everyone else -- he was more than happy to keep that a secret; but by the time senior year came, Peter's desire to tell people had kept growing.
Returning from winter break their senior year, Jason continued to resist Peter's request that they tell his mother about their relationship, but did give in to his desire to have Jason try out for the school play with him -- a musical version of Romeo and Juliet. Jason got the lead, with most of his friends and his sister in the cast, and their friend Ivy opposite him as Juliet.
Under Peter's continued insistence that leaving St. Cecilia's meant they could start being public about their relationship, Jason became more and more uncomfortable at the idea of coming out to anyone. Meanwhile, Ivy began seriously pursuing her long-term crush on Jason, and his habitual flirting with her put even more of a strain on his relationship with both his boyfriend and his sister.
Things came to a head at Ivy's birthday party, where Jason reluctantly agreed to Ivy's request of a kiss for her birthday after ignoring Peter earlier. Feeling rejected, a drunk and high Peter came out to one of their other friends, Matt, which made him even more certain that he had to tell his mother before she found out another way. Matt called Jason a slur the next day in rehearsal, ending in a fight, and when Peter came to ask again about telling his mother afterwards, Jason broke up with him.
Depressed, torn, and trying to pretend once and for all that he's straight, Jason slept with Ivy the last night before leaving for Spring Break. While he regretted it and tried to put an end to things when they came back, trying to rekindle at least his friendship with Peter, things weren't that simple. Right when it looked like things might be fixed between him and Peter, Ivy came to Jason to tell him she was pregnant.
Jason freaked out enough to be genuinely considering Ivy's suggestion that he stay with her -- only to be interrupted by Matt, outing him and Peter in front of Ivy, Nadia, and the entire cast of the school show. Ivy ran, Nadia followed, Peter rejected Jason's desperate plea to help him. Alone, Jason went to confession and had a break down, coming as close to admitting his sexuality as he ever has and begging the priest to tell him it was okay, and instead having it confirmed that there's something wrong with him.
• Character Personality:
— Caring: The people Jason's closest to, he wants to care for. This comes through the clearest in his relationship with Peter: until things go downhill, in the private moments between them, he's often comforting him, settling Peter's worries; he tries out because he knows Peter wants them to do the show together; and in their break-up, Peter heavily implies that despite his own issues, Jason is the one who helped Peter become comfortable with his sexuality. But it's also there in his interactions with Nadia, and even in the way he often seems to be actively trying not to set off Matt's inferiority issues, and genuinely regretful that he can't give Ivy what she wants.
— Friendly: Even outside his particular circle of close friendships, Jason gets along with everyone. The chorus of You and I is pretty much the entire school interrupting him and Peter in order to talk to Jason. He's the golden boy, and he knows how to play up to it -- getting people to like him is part of the job.
— Driven: Jason is the school valedictorian. He's been accepted to Notre Dame. He gets the lead in the play after showing up on pretty much a whim. He leads the sports teams he's on. If he's going after something, it's going to get done. While not all this comes from the healthiest place, Jason still knows how to use his determination and perfectionism to his benefit and make things happen.
— Cowardly/Afraid: Peter repeatedly accuses Jason of being a coward, first when they fight over coming out and then when they break up, and it pretty much cuts down to the core of Jason's faults. He is constantly, endlessly scared that people are going to find out that he's not the perfect golden boy he pretends to be. It's about his sexuality first and foremost, but it's also about the idea of what happens when he stops living up to expectations. He'd rather make himself be content inside the box he's been put in, no matter how cramped and unfulfilling, then try and step outside and find out what happens.
— Self-centered: When his boyfriend wants to come out to his mother, Jason's first thought is how likely it is this will ruin his life. When Ivy tells him she's pregnant, Jason's reaction is to ask God why he's doing this to him. For all that Jason bends himself out of shape to be what other people want from him, his first thought is often about how things affect himself. He's 17, and it's probably something he'll grow out of eventually, but at the moment, no matter how much he cares about people, seeing their perspective is a second thought.
— Dependent: Jason isn't sure what to do without other people as a guide. It doesn't have to be direct, constant instruction -- but he's lived his entire life under expectations, and his primary goal has always been living up to those expectations. When he falters, he's completely lost, and literally and repeatedly begs for someone to tell him what to do. He goes to the church for guidance, and then to Peter, and when they both turn him away, he's lost enough to kill himself. Jason doesn't really know how to deal with life on his own, and being somewhere so far away from everyone who knows him and has expectations for him for the first time is going to leave him floundering hard.
• Character Skills:
• Athletic
• Academic ability
• Can keep a secret like a bank vault
• Character Inventory:
— ITEM ONE: His school bag, containing a couple of textbooks; a copy of the script for Romeo and Juliet, notations for his role in the margins; assorted pens, pencils, etc; and the notecards for his valedictorian speech
— ITEM TWO: A photograph of him and Nadia
— ITEM THREE: A photograph of him and Peter
• Important Notes: N/A!
• Writing Samples:
— SAMPLE ONE: Here
— SAMPLE TWO: Here
• Player Name: Balsam
• Player Contact: PM /
• Player Age: 33
• Permissions: Here.
CHARACTER INFO
• Character Name: Jason McConnell
• Character Age: 17
• Character Canon: bare: A Pop Opera
• Canon Point: Mid-act 2, after Cross.
CWs for this entire app: Parental abuse (neglect, emotional); homophobia; religion; suicide; teen pregnancy
• Character History: Jason and his twin sister, Nadia, are the children of rich, neglectful parents. They expected a lot from both of them, with Jason especially pressured by his father to do well in sports and in school, but also barely paid attention to them, down to making a habit of forgetting their birthday. Around twelve years old, the two of them were sent to St. Cecilia's, a Catholic boarding school. They found a circle of friends that would stick with them through the rest of their schooling -- and Jason met his roommate, Peter, who would become one of the most important people in his life.
Jason spent the next few years playing sports, becoming popular, getting top grades, and partying with his friends on weekends. At some point during those years, Jason and Peter discovered they were both gay, and began a relationship they kept secret from everyone else. With Jason desperate to keep pleasing his homophobic, demanding parents -- and everyone else -- he was more than happy to keep that a secret; but by the time senior year came, Peter's desire to tell people had kept growing.
Returning from winter break their senior year, Jason continued to resist Peter's request that they tell his mother about their relationship, but did give in to his desire to have Jason try out for the school play with him -- a musical version of Romeo and Juliet. Jason got the lead, with most of his friends and his sister in the cast, and their friend Ivy opposite him as Juliet.
Under Peter's continued insistence that leaving St. Cecilia's meant they could start being public about their relationship, Jason became more and more uncomfortable at the idea of coming out to anyone. Meanwhile, Ivy began seriously pursuing her long-term crush on Jason, and his habitual flirting with her put even more of a strain on his relationship with both his boyfriend and his sister.
Things came to a head at Ivy's birthday party, where Jason reluctantly agreed to Ivy's request of a kiss for her birthday after ignoring Peter earlier. Feeling rejected, a drunk and high Peter came out to one of their other friends, Matt, which made him even more certain that he had to tell his mother before she found out another way. Matt called Jason a slur the next day in rehearsal, ending in a fight, and when Peter came to ask again about telling his mother afterwards, Jason broke up with him.
Depressed, torn, and trying to pretend once and for all that he's straight, Jason slept with Ivy the last night before leaving for Spring Break. While he regretted it and tried to put an end to things when they came back, trying to rekindle at least his friendship with Peter, things weren't that simple. Right when it looked like things might be fixed between him and Peter, Ivy came to Jason to tell him she was pregnant.
Jason freaked out enough to be genuinely considering Ivy's suggestion that he stay with her -- only to be interrupted by Matt, outing him and Peter in front of Ivy, Nadia, and the entire cast of the school show. Ivy ran, Nadia followed, Peter rejected Jason's desperate plea to help him. Alone, Jason went to confession and had a break down, coming as close to admitting his sexuality as he ever has and begging the priest to tell him it was okay, and instead having it confirmed that there's something wrong with him.
• Character Personality:
— Caring: The people Jason's closest to, he wants to care for. This comes through the clearest in his relationship with Peter: until things go downhill, in the private moments between them, he's often comforting him, settling Peter's worries; he tries out because he knows Peter wants them to do the show together; and in their break-up, Peter heavily implies that despite his own issues, Jason is the one who helped Peter become comfortable with his sexuality. But it's also there in his interactions with Nadia, and even in the way he often seems to be actively trying not to set off Matt's inferiority issues, and genuinely regretful that he can't give Ivy what she wants.
— Friendly: Even outside his particular circle of close friendships, Jason gets along with everyone. The chorus of You and I is pretty much the entire school interrupting him and Peter in order to talk to Jason. He's the golden boy, and he knows how to play up to it -- getting people to like him is part of the job.
— Driven: Jason is the school valedictorian. He's been accepted to Notre Dame. He gets the lead in the play after showing up on pretty much a whim. He leads the sports teams he's on. If he's going after something, it's going to get done. While not all this comes from the healthiest place, Jason still knows how to use his determination and perfectionism to his benefit and make things happen.
— Cowardly/Afraid: Peter repeatedly accuses Jason of being a coward, first when they fight over coming out and then when they break up, and it pretty much cuts down to the core of Jason's faults. He is constantly, endlessly scared that people are going to find out that he's not the perfect golden boy he pretends to be. It's about his sexuality first and foremost, but it's also about the idea of what happens when he stops living up to expectations. He'd rather make himself be content inside the box he's been put in, no matter how cramped and unfulfilling, then try and step outside and find out what happens.
— Self-centered: When his boyfriend wants to come out to his mother, Jason's first thought is how likely it is this will ruin his life. When Ivy tells him she's pregnant, Jason's reaction is to ask God why he's doing this to him. For all that Jason bends himself out of shape to be what other people want from him, his first thought is often about how things affect himself. He's 17, and it's probably something he'll grow out of eventually, but at the moment, no matter how much he cares about people, seeing their perspective is a second thought.
— Dependent: Jason isn't sure what to do without other people as a guide. It doesn't have to be direct, constant instruction -- but he's lived his entire life under expectations, and his primary goal has always been living up to those expectations. When he falters, he's completely lost, and literally and repeatedly begs for someone to tell him what to do. He goes to the church for guidance, and then to Peter, and when they both turn him away, he's lost enough to kill himself. Jason doesn't really know how to deal with life on his own, and being somewhere so far away from everyone who knows him and has expectations for him for the first time is going to leave him floundering hard.
• Character Skills:
• Athletic
• Academic ability
• Can keep a secret like a bank vault
• Character Inventory:
— ITEM ONE: His school bag, containing a couple of textbooks; a copy of the script for Romeo and Juliet, notations for his role in the margins; assorted pens, pencils, etc; and the notecards for his valedictorian speech
— ITEM TWO: A photograph of him and Nadia
— ITEM THREE: A photograph of him and Peter
• Important Notes: N/A!
• Writing Samples:
— SAMPLE ONE: Here
— SAMPLE TWO: Here